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| i dont understand how two people who want the same thing in life cannot be content with eachother. there are two people i know who want to find someone to love and "move worlds" for. honestly, it's high school, that person isn't going to show up. if so, that person is only tempoary. im sorry to burst the bubbles of those that believe in love at this age. is it not enough simply to have fun with life and just flirt and have non serious relationships for the time being? what's the big deal? what's the rush? and how is it that these two people who have known eachother for so long still not be content to be eachothers. i mean, they clearly want the same thing. a serious relationship to last a life time. i'm being sort of ignorant i guess. although i don't believe ignorant is the right word. i mean, i guess if you took out all the little details and whatnot, the two people are perfect for eachother, but theres this thing about soul mates and being "the one" and idk. i think i'm going off course. i just really don't know what to say. can't people just be THANKFUL nowadays? or is that too much to ask for? you don't have to be religious to be thankful, yeesh. i don't know what i'm typing anymore. im simply fustrated. be happy for your own sake and stop rushing foward, looking for things that will eventually come. you can't have everything you've ever wanted appear before your very eyes ready for you to reach out and claim. life doesn't work that way. i thought people would have figured that out by now... | | |
| there are plenty of people out there who hate to be single. despite the fact that they have family and friends to keep them company. friends and family are great and yet they feel a need to belong to someone or be completed by someone. others don't like being tied down to a single person and prefer the single life. yet all the couples that i've seen lately are single, but they have a "boothang", their "man", their "woman", what ever floats their boat and still consider themselves single. they still celebrate anniverseries and, well, everything a couple would do. but they refuse to say they're taken because "that's when the trouble occurs". i'm awfully confused. the way i see it, issues will occur whether you commit yourself to someone or not. it's part of life. i don't think you can fully live without ANY drama. you've got to have some, right? sure we all hate it when it happens to us but honestly. imagine how boring it would be with no drama whatsoever. just saying. | | |
| research papers suck for the following reasons 1. i do NOT like to spend hours researching on facts that won't help me in life. i think that makes me a bit practical. or perhaps just ignorant like most people my age. 2. i don't have a printer to print things out with. my little brother decided to break it because he likes expensive toys that aren't really toys. i also don't understand why everything has to be so damn perfect. a little typo on the title page wouldn't kill anyone would it? but redoing a useless piece of paper just so everything's perfect is hurting a tree. (i'm environmental friendly. or i try to be). 3. it takes forever when i could do plentiful other things. things that interest me and things i find necessary; like catching up with people i haven't spoken to in forever! (if any of you are reading this, i hope you all are doing fine) 4. flash drives are a pain in the butt. i got a new one and it's one of those high tech kinds that protect your work from theft. it has a password and everything. unfortunately, it's not compatible with MAC, which the schools provide, and windows, what i own. four reasons, i think that's more than enough, wouldn't you agree? i wish i didn't have this paper to do. if i didn't i'd either sleep, read, or i could have spent an hour with Cody. he's a cool guy no doubt and "if my calculations are correct" (hehe, i think i sounded so cool just then), i have never in my life spent time one on one with him. so sad. my ex of a month now has a new girlfriend. he asked me if i went to the movies with cody yesterday and i said that i couldn't because of a research paper. it's a bit nerve-wrecking to know that these two guys talked about me. anyhow, i continued the conversation by asking how things were with him and the girl he liked and as fate would have it, they're now an item. i didn't think it was awkward that he told me until i came to the realization that we dated and exes aren't suppose to talk about things like new "people". funny how a mind can play tricks like that! i guess the next time i talk to an ex i should simply think that everythings fine and it will be. wow, i'm capable of tricking myself! how fascinating... | | |
| so i decided to postpone my research paper even FURTHER and go on xanga since i enjoy blogging more than writing in my journal. i always plan to write page after page of my "interesting" life but my hand gets tired. anyways, i didn't know what to blog about so i just kinda surfed around, i guess you could say. i'd like to share that i really like the entries by the user, "lovesporks". the way she uses her language is amazing i'd have to say. and she seems like a really cool person. i'd love to be able to blog about interesting matters like she does, and often too. sadly, i only use xanga so that people can catch up with me and what's going on in my life and so i can catch up with them! the downside is that not very many people use xanga any more. which kinda makes me sad. xanga's pretty darn cool (: today was a sad waste of my time. i attended ROP from 8-430 and booooy, have i ever wasted so much time in my life. not only was i inhaling chemicals all day but i was literally doing nothing for hours. i didn't learn a single thing! how disappointing. afterwards, i went to valerie's house and worked on my essays. printed one out, postponed another (because it's due november 21 thus giving me plenty of time to do it til then), and continued another which i am at the moment putting on hold. it's due tomorrow and i will most likely stay up all night in order to finish it. but to be honest, i have no will power to work on it right now. none whatsoever 
i haven't used xanga in so long, i almost forgot about the smileys! how awful. i would like to create a new xanga account, this one is quite old and it makes me miss my old doggies very very much. i will make one as soon as i think of a creative name that fits me, yummm. i'm kinda excited duty calls! | | |
| so basically i've been having a great week just cos it went real smooth, but perhaps i'm PMSing cos little things seem to piss the crap outta me. for instance, i Hate, with a capital H, how people call you and they can't seem to understand that you don't wana talk. i say i wana sleep and honestly, i do. i haven't been doing much but school, study, rop and college. it might not seem like a lot but it's a load of stress cos i'm trying to do the best i can. do it well or don't do it at all. so all my effort results in slightly better grades, no phone conversations with my best friends, my cousins, anyone. i'm out fridays and that small amount of time with my friends keep me sane (: also, i truly don't understand how rude people are. if people are gona vote for the white guy, so be it. don't fuckin' put others down just cos you don't agree with them. i helluh don't appreciate it when someone says they aren't voting for Obama and everyone immediately goes, "What the fuckk? that's helluh stupid! why the fuck would you vote for McCain?!" like dayum guys, let the people do what ever the hell they want to okay? I'm simply stating, i support Obama and i think he'd make a great president, but i also value the opinion of others, even if theirs is different from mine. same thing with the propositions and what not. calm the heck down people! otherwise i had a pretty great week. i hung out with precious and jasmine all week at lunch and the two of them are doing great. same old same old i guess you could say<3 after school i went to taco bell, jasmines casa, and the movies to watch Role Models. it was a really great movie. super funny. my opinion anyways haha. | | |
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